Act Cute Guys
[27th June, 5.45 pm] Ironically, I had not "rested" for the whole of today [until now]. Even when the office was empty since an hour ago, I was quietly making official calls and doing my work. Could this be a scenario where I wanna feel time pass by like a breeze? Hence the choice not to take a breather even when they aren’t around? I don’t know. Anyway, this is going to be a short post. I have always been annoyed by act cute guys who just "cannot make it". But today, I just realised I totally abhor their repulsive behaviour. Won’t name names, but just for instances, we have MSN nicks like, "sweet sweet de darl dar" and "someone never go dating with me, I’m so sad sad leh". Apologies to owners of those nicks [if you happen to read this entry by mistake], but I just feel the repugnance when guys speak like that online. I cannot fathom how they would transform those into daily sentences. Bah. I am so, so cynical. Anyhow, another topic aside, I am aware of my shortcomings, and I treat loved ones badly at times. I take them for granted, I know I was/am wrong to do that. Just yesterday, I encountered the worst form of jolting I ever received. Why would anyone make comparisons? When you start to make comparisons between two individuals, have you wondered whether it was fair to do so? True enough, I am the worst kind of friend you could befriend. I’m paranoid, and sometimes I really think I should visit a psychiatrist to find out whether I have such problems. But all along, even towards evil guys, there are certainly good points about them. A guy who bashes up his elderly mother, may be a volunteer at the Old Folk’s Home, for all you know! A guy who steals underwear, may be selling them off, so that he could donate the proceeds to charity organisations! Every person has his or her good and bad points. I’m no exception, perhaps I have more bad than good. But to call me "worthless", or "you’re nothing compared to…" had to be the worst. I’m nothing? I’m worst off than pollution? Worst off than tsunamis which killed so many people? I have just refuted my own theory, and have juxtaposed apples and oranges in comparison. I’m worse off than Hitler? Even he was a filial son. Who am I? Nothing. ***** [27th June, 11.38 pm] Further if you cannot articulate yourself properly, and give crystal clear instructions [like which file you want to be copied onto which file], please wait till I’m less groggy, in the next morning. I would be more receptive to your lengthy 10-paragraph instructions that could be explained in a mere 3 sentences.
As usual, the office is empty because all my managers are at a teleconference. I’m not required to attend, and hence I have all the time to myself now.
I don’t mind clocking OT, but if I’m discouraged to clock OT, and inevitably waste the company’s money, I wouldn’t appreciate it if I’m given last minute work/instructions.
I was mentioning this scenario to a friend, and I said, "Would you blame the doctor for prescibing a wrong medication? Or would you blame the nurse for reading the doctor’s handwriting wrongly?" Which is why doctors are advised to have illegible handwriting.
The boss prolly knows of everyone’s work ethics. I could see exactly who’s diligent, and who’s not during the first week of my stint there. And there are really few supervisors whom I show my due respect to. I am, but another disgruntled employee.
And as Daphne says, in my organisation, I’m part of a upturned pyramid. 1 boss, 5 managers and 1 administrator. It makes a nice little diamond.
