Serendipity

I am damn pissed off. I shall ignore everyone and let them think or say what they want. I just came home from a department dinner, and it went on well, except for the fact that I was so damn full, and they keep making me eat (sorry, my tummy fails me when it comes to buffet, thank you), and I kept quiet most of the time.

I do understand their jokes and such, but everyone there is your superior, so how corny can you get? Anyway that’s not the point.

*****

Now my mum knows about it, and she has made her own conjectures about the whole saga. "What happened to the two of you?" she asked.

Slightly irritated, I said, "Isn’t it obvious? We’re over." And then she left me alone. Few hours later, and then she probed, to see who the "culprit" was. "Who blew the relationship?"

"Must be you lah, aiyoh he very poor thing leh…"

I was like, WTF? I almost wanted to curse out every swear word that I’ve learnt before. But I didn’t. I ignored her, and asked her why she is making assumptions out of nothing she knew.

Then she went into her room, and few minutes she came out, to hand me my daily dose of fish oil supplements. "You never give him back the phone ah?" I kept silence. I’m fine with monetary aspects, he can take back all the things he gave me, but that’s not the point.

"Aiyoh, why don’t you apologise to him?"

HELLO?! You don’t even know what’s going on, Mummy! In the first place, it could have been a mutual breakup, no? Fine, I’m the bitch for blowing all my relationships! Please do not fall for me, anyone?!

I still remember what happened when we first got together, so many people were like so predictable of our future, that I would betray him, since they claimed that I have done it before. What the?

HELLO?! You’re not in my shoes, what do YOU know? I ended my previous relationship before I embarked on this, you know? =/

Why is it that everyone blames me for the end of the relationship? I was (am still) depressed. Like it makes a difference to those idiots who keep thinking that it’s my fault because I have someone new, etc.

True, it’s my own fault for not being able to articulate my feelings through words. And sad enough, he doesn’t understand my every action and behaviour, so it was a goner. Though it has been scientifically proven that words only form 35% of the conversation, and the tone, pitch, the body language, and non-verbal aspects form the other 65%.

It’s my fault for finding fault. My fault for throwing tantrums. My fault that I was being lied to. My fault that he has chosen to shower concern on other more important people and stuffs instead.

Who am I? Nobody!

BAH.

*****

On a lighter tone, and a heavier stomach, this evening’s dinner was an impromptu one. I wasn’t invited, but I was included in the email notification, but since a colleague said in his email, "Everyone must be there. Managers especially," I took it that my presence was voluntary.

We went to the Tong Luk Seafood Gallery at East Coast Park (behind MacDonald’s) and I realised that my department can really eat.

I was having fun taking pictures of the food, and HS asked, "HEY! You taking pictures ah? Free food also no need to do that right?"

I was slightly annoyed. I was thinking of this blog when I took those pictures. But I stopped after what he said, since it did indeed make me look out of place (even though photo-taking was done very discreetly) and a little "cheap-skate".

So we ate buffet, at the expense of $480 vouchers that was given to the department by some suppliers. The dinner cost $340 in total, and they ordered so much food that made me wonder whether they are earning high incomes.

The way they behave is no difference from those who go to the Marina Bay’s seafood buffet, and bring food back by the truckload. Only difference is, that we are served, and they paid $12 for the food (we paid nothing!).

I am a loser when it comes to buffet. I have very little capacity for buffets. My lunch kaki can eat 12 slices of pizza at her highest record, whereas I can only manage 3, at the most! -.-"

My boss keep picking food for me, cause there were just too much food to be finished. It was quite a disgusting sight, in the sense that there were too much food, and we have to force ourselves to eat those food. -.-"

And they ate dog meat before! OMG! And some of them even wanted to travel all the way overseas just to try dog meat! =/ I was so put off, I nearly puked out all my food at that instance. Yucks.

*****

One of my colleagues sent me home because she lives quite near. Hehe, at least it won’t be after midnight that I reach home! Pictures are not included here in this blog, because they are too sucky to be seen. Bah.

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