Nightmares
Urgh. I freaking hate nightmares. ~>.<~ Woke up with a start this afternoon, and the first few questions I’ve had in my mind was, "Where am I?" and "What time is it?" In the dream, I was with my Dad in Malaysia. I must have been thinking too much of going to Malaysia [especially Genting], which is the reason for the nightmare! So we were at this weird funfair, where they had ferocious animals performing tricks and such. I was pretty turned off by those sights, and hence I requested to visit the nicer parts of the funfair. Went around the food and other sections, and then we strolled into the unsheltered walkway. My dad chose to walk outside [near the road] whereas I chose to walk inside, and between us, was a rather big drain which looked terribly intimidating. It was at a junction when I decided to turn out to my Dad’s path, when he suddenly turned in, and suggested that we walk "underground" so that we could avoid crossing the traffic later on. He walked faster, and was at least 10 metres in front of me. The sky was pretty dark, and as I was "admiring" the eerie surroundings in front of me, I heard my dad speak in Mandarin, "the last hole!" I knew he meant to ask me to follow him into the last tunnel by the right. Then I heard a terrible scream by my Dad, asking me to "pick up the sharp weapon by the drain". I picked it up, ran into the "last hole", and I saw a guy in tribal clothings holding on to my weak Dad. I charged towards him, and I tried to stab him with the sharp tool I was holding. After a few failed attempts, I finally manage to impale the weapon into his body. Ran forward, and found my dad to be wounded by a similar, piercing weapon. The gruesome scene of blood that kept oozing out freaked me. Then the police arrived, and arrested the tribal guy and a few of his mates. Then I woke up, had my eyes opened for a long while, which I then stared into the blank. There was no reason I couldn’t notice that it was merely a dream! It just sent a chilly feeling into me. Yucks. What a wonderful dream. -.-" ***** I’m resting at home, again. Doctor says it is a cough viral infection, and if I didn’t rest enough, I’ll not be able to recover in 2 months. I was prescribed with some drugs that would cure the "symptoms", but ultimately, I do need my rest. Hence I requested for the doctor to give me an MC for today [Friday!]. I am genuinely sick, but because of the workload and such, I’m just afraid my colleagues would think I am trying to skive [albeit with reasons]. Initially, I wanted to apologise for my frequent absence in the office for the past fortnight. I was away from office for 3 and a half days! It is the first time I’ve been feeling so sick, and the first time I saw 3 doctors in 2 weeks. Sickening. -.-" Not to mention it was a complete waste of money! =/ Anyway, Noel was like saying that I shouldn’t sound so apologetic, since the doctor advised me to rest well, and that the MC was valid enough for me to skip work. I’m entitled to it, so to speak. Then I quipped, "because they will think I am fake?" And he agreed. I think that’s similar to another situation which happened a while later, just before I slept. I apologise first to avoid possible misunderstandings, yet the misunderstandings arise later in a different manner, of me not being myself. =/ ***** Thursday morning at around 2 am, I was struck with a really terrible headache, such that I felt I was going to die. -.-" It wasn’t something I have felt before, for the pain was concentrated in the temple of my forehead, and I’ve had thoughts of it being a tumour or something. -.-" When I finally got to bed at 3.30 am, what with all the perspiration and throbbing headaches, I felt so miserable. -.-" Sometimes illnesses really drive one into desperation. I woke up at 6 plus, and forced myself back to sleep until it was 7.30am. The pain was still there, but I still fought to go to work. But it wasn’t to gain sympathy! Grr. I hate falling sick and feeling sick. -.-" ***** I’m pretty satisfied with the Superstar’s results yesterday at 11.30pm. Kelly, Junyang, Derrick got in! =P As usual, my mum voted for Kelvin. She called his number a few times to show her support, which was like such a waste of money. No, I’m not saying that it is a waste of money to support Kelvin or whoever, but those money could be used for charitable purposes [not for golden taps or toilet bowls, of course] or something more meaningful. Kelvin’s voice is good, though I don’t really like his nasal singing. But I think in the long run, he’s not really able to change his style very much. I was so anticipative towards Kelly’s performance, that I had my eyes glued on the TV set when she was singing. Enjoyed her lively performance to bits, and I disagree with one of the judges who said her singing didn’t sound as cheeky as she should, for that song. Junyang and Kelly should really exchange pointers! Hehehe. ***** Caught this sentence while I was watching TV at 9 plus yesterday. Guess who said it? "Clinging onto him will not give me happiness. Yet it is the only fantasy I’ll have." Sounds so illogical, but so heart-wrenching too. *****
I’ll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you’ll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever
You are the sun
You are my life
And you’re the last thing on my mind before I go to
Sleep at night
You’re always round when I’m in need
When troubles on my mind you put my soul at ease
There is no one in this world, who could love me like
You do
That is the reason that I wanna spend forever with you
