Serendipity

This was taken from my Nokia 3230. Nice right! I love this photo the best, took this in Desaru Fruit Farm, JB. I adore the serenity as shown in this photo!! =P

I’ve learnt how to show my appreciation towards kind gestures. I’ve learnt to be contented and appreciative of the things around me. =)

The problem is, no one will know that you care for them, unless you do something or ask after them!

Took Friday off to accompany Dad to Alexandra Hospital, for some "small case" as coined by the doctor. So I was his Guardian for a day, but there was no anesthesia, so basically my "services" wasn’t needed actually. Gee.

Before his appointment with the doctor, we were looking for the canteen. He couldn’t eat, since he fasted from the afternoon of the day before.

So he was actively looking for the canteen for my sake! Aww, so sweet. =X Actually I ate something else, so I wasn’t that hungry, but in the end I ordered chee cheong fan! Nice, nice! $1.20 only, for two pieces!!

Then Dad asked whether I wanted a drink, and he went to buy mineral water for me. Aww. So sweet. I am easily touched by such teeny weeny gestures, really! =)

So it was a day of waiting, and more waiting. At least there wasn’t anything serious, for now, thank goodness.

When I came home, I went to buy lunch for the two of us and when I was walking back along the drain, he was watching me from above!

Reminds me of how I used to do something like that! Hahaha…

When my mum knew that my dad had asked me to buy lunch from across the street, she "lectured" him and said it was dangerous for me to cross the roads. -.-" I have a feeling that I’m still.. 9 [years old]?

Do all parents think of their adult children as kids?! I’m not complaining or anything, I’m seriously very thankful that I have a complete family, despite not being on very good terms with my sister. =)

*****

And then before my bath, my dad warned me about the wet floor [since he used the bathroom before me]… "xiao xin di shang hua…"

It’s merely a simple phrase of caution, yet it means so, so much to me. The dad whom I’ve always thought of, as one without much expression, had put a smile on my face with his simple words of care. =)

*****

So today is Sunday, which translate to ‘boring day‘ for me. But it’s good to rest during the weekends, for it helps to repay your sleep debts! =P

Almost forgot about the seminar I went on Saturday with Margaret. I’ve learnt a hell lot of things from there. Now I know the reason why some people would pay $1000 for a seminar!

The speakers were really good! =) Full of inspiration to me…

Just to share a few things with you guys…

4 factors of healthy living: Eating well, sleeping sufficiently, exercising and having positive moods!

Eating well means eating the right things in the right amounts. A lot of our modern diseases are caused by [the wrong type of] foods that we eat.

Sleeping must be done before 11pm, because that’s when the liver starts to work.

Exercising must be done at least half an hour per session, twice per week, and there must be perspiration!

Having sustained positive moods is actually quite hard, but just change your perception! =)

*****

A lady got her license a few weeks ago, and she was driving on the streets when her car broke down, at the traffic lights one day.

She was in her panic mode, since she has no experience in dealing with broken down vehicles, so she tried very hard to start her car’s engine.

Beads of pespiration rolled down her forehead to the side of her face, and the traffic lights kept changing from green to orange to red, and her car just wouldn’t budge.

Her panic self screamed anxiety when the traffic police [who was directing the traffic] came over. She half-expected him to lash out at her, but in the end, he said, "Lady, you still can’t decide on the colour you like?"

This made the lady felt slightly better. Later, there was this taxi driver who kept horning at her since she blocked the way.

She went back to his car, and asked, "Sir, I’m trying to start my car, and I don’t think horning will make anything better. If you insist on horning, why not you help me fix my car, and I’ll do the horning instead?"

*****

Moral: Sometimes you can make a bad situation better by handling it in a less angry way. We’ll always have our own share of shits that happen all the time, but like the 90/10 theory [where 10% depends on the incidents, and 90% depends on our reactions], there’s always a good way to deal with things in a positive way. =)

I agree. =)

By the way, happy birthday Jiahui, and Bernard. Happy Mid-Autumn to you guys as well. I used to adore Mid-Autumn so much, cause it was a time where my friends and I would be like kids again, celebrating the festival by playing together. I missed those times. Hehe.

I love you, all my friends. =)

What a corny topic for today. However, much as this topic is alike talking to old people about brushing their teeth [or dentures], there’s still an interesting touch to it.

Right kidos, you can stop having old people with only gums smiling at you in your imagery! =X

It has always been said that technology brings people closer, people at the other end of the world would be able to communicate with you in real time!

On the downside, however, most people have the tendency to neglect neighbors and other people.

Technology, is often marketed as a tool that saves time. You no longer need to have meetings in person, organisations do not need to fork out as much money to send their representatives overseas for negotiations.

Anyone can read and learn about the vast knowledge that’s out there in the open! Some knowledge is free for all, and the web is indeed a good place to research and such. I, for one, love Googling [technology creates lame & techy terms] stuffs compared to physically going down to the library to research!

I could go on and on about the good of Technology, but like a double-edged sword, the existence of technology gives rise to employment "opportunities" to IT experts and hackers alike.

I’ve always had this weird theory, that if we didn’t rely so much on our handphone, we wouldn’t be late for gatherings. In the past, when you make appointments with friends, you’ll stick to it by hook or by crook after leaving the house.

Now with our mobile phones, we tend to text one another with "I’ll be late for 10 minutes, diarrhoea ah!" excuses.

Like as if Singapore has so many wrong food to eat, that people keep having diarrhoea!

Sidenote: Diarrhoea and headache is the two most used sickness to claim sick leaves. =P

In a way, in my personal and humble opinion, Technology gave me the chance to express myself in writing, when I could hardly do so in spoken words. But that also made me less willing to speak up more often.

In my previous job, I saw how the introduction of any system, would cause uproar and dissatisfaction amongst people who are affected by it.

CPF’s E-submission for employers is supposed to save paper transactions between the employers and the board.

However, all those documentation purposes is leaving the office stacked with more rims of paper! Then again we need to look at the long term, though which seems obviously bleak. =X

Now, we have this online document system [change of name to protect myself! Please don't sue me for libel, what's written in this blog is my opinionated judgement!] in my company. What’s expected of me, is to scan those documents to the online system, so that any people can retrieve it online from any location.

Yeah, that was the plan, but the loopholes are caused by the exact efforts of the company to safeguard its security issues. You can’t PDF the documents immediately from the system [there is a choice for it, however, it has been disabled], and the only way is to print out those documents.

Problem is, the system prints at snail speed, and hangs my computer whenever I try to print more than 5 pages? Each page takes around 5 minutes to print successfully, so in the end, I’d figure that it’s more worthwhile to retrieve the physical document to PDF and email over. Gee.

And the one thing that annoys me most, is that workers in the same office would rather email you than to call out for you, especially when they are only 2 metres away. Not pin-pointing at anyone, this is just a general trend. =)

*****

Long weekend for me! =) Nonetheless, a busy one at that. Enjoy your weekend!

"Are you living well?" Kelvin thought to himself as he reminisced the past. Strutting slowly around the house, traces of Germaine seemed to linger around still. Kelvin lives in an apartment with his elder sister and his parents, who had already taken Germaine as their daughter-in-law.

It has been a year since they broke off, yet Kelvin still pines for her everyday. Their relationship was the most smooth-running that anyone had seen. Yet even the most unyielding relationship has its vulnerable points.

He was her life, and she, his.

Theirs was a beautiful 7-year relationship, filled with companionship, joy and trust. Kelvin first knew her in college, and similar interests pulled them closer still. He always had a strange theory, which Germaine couldn’t agree further. "They always say opposites attract, but LOVE is able to bring two repeling poles of the magnets together, by acting as the metal in between."

Isn’t it true? The only way to make two north poles (or south poles) of the magnets stick together, is by adding a piece of metal in between. This metal, is what we call, "LOVE".

Kelvin was the direction in her life, and she couldn’t do without him. She is the type where her boyfriend’s physical presence meant a lot. Being the vulnerable girlfriend, she had to have him beside her all the time, to be there for her whenever she needed him.

It wasn’t that she was taking him for granted, that was her personality, dependance and possessiveness were a few of her weak points.

They were classmates in college. Hordes of projects brought them together. They had always made it a point to devote their free time to each other, it was nothing but pure sweetness.

They studied hard together, played hard together, and soon they were an item. Fighting for their future together seemed to make things a whole lot easier. It was as if they could just put in half the effort to obtain twice the result.

"I’ve been accepted by NUS!!!" Germaine cried as she opened the letter in front of Kelvin. Weeks ago, Germaine thought she couldn’t join her boyfriend for a tertiary education as she didn’t do well for her A levels.

Soon after, they completed their varsity education, and started with their first jobs separately. Kelvin, being the smart guy that he always was, did very well in his work. The boss thoughtly highly of them, and gave him major projects to handle along the way. Years later, the company suggested for him to be posted to North Carolina, USA for an overseas assignment.

The assignment would take about a year long, and during this one year, he could only come back twice, for two weeks in total. It was a splendid news, this assignment could add value to his work experience, and there wasn’t much hesitation to it. He wanted to give Germaine a good future, and this assignment would definitely help, by leaps and bounds.

Still, he was worried. His fears were not uncalled for, afterall, Germaine was pretty dependant on him.

He met her over dinner, after work. He popped the news to her, expecting her to share his joy. Silence. Germaine looked at Kelvin intensely, and broke into tears. "What would I do without you?"

She sobbed incontrollably, so much so that he felt like giving up the opportunity.

After speaking to his good friend, Kelvin decided to propose to her during their 7th year anniversary. His good friend suggested that she must have felt insecured towards his leaving, and the only reassurance that he could give her, was a marriage proposal. He was convinced that he was going to make her his wife, hence he felt that Germaine should be told of his determination towards her.

Things went well, they had a romantic day full of events which Kelvin had planned. Flowers, cards, and most of all, a wedding ring. The moment came, and on one bend knee, he proposed to her. She was speechless, and tears of joy rolled down immediately.

Tightly, she grabbed Kelvin close to her. They were in public, and the tears ruined her makeup, but she couldn’t just stop crying.

Few weeks later, he left for North Carolina. Work was constantly busy, but he still made it a point to give Germaine a short call every day. On weekends, they would chat for slighty longer, or even converse through emails. The feeling was nothing near conversing in-person, but it was the best they could do.

Soon, his assignments kept him even busier still. Calls and emails were a rare thing.

3 months later, his sister called him. The news that came from her was an utter shock. She saw Germaine with another guy in Orchard when she was out window-shopping. Germaine saw his sister, but she totally pretended she was invisible. He refused to believe his sister, and made calls immediately to Germaine.

She didn’t pick up his calls. He tried a second time, and again the rejection was given. He was heartbroken, could what his sister said, be true?

During the day, when he worked, his mind was full of her. He couldn’t really concentrate. There was no means to contact Germaine, and she wouldn’t reply any of his emails, calls, or SMSes.

Kelvin checked his email one day, there was an email from her. Shocked, but glad that she finally responded, he opened that message from her. The content of it gave Kelvin a stab in his chest.

She wrote about how she felt so lonely without him. She had to have someone to depend on, and it was hell for her when he left. She also wrote about how she knew this guy and how happy they were together. She felt true happiness from him, and that he was the first guy to give him that sense of security.

"I’m sorry, let’s break up," were her last words.

It was definitely heart-wrenching for Kelvin. She chose to leave him at his most vulnerable, at a time where he could do nothing to salvage their situation. If he were in Singapore, he might have been able to do something. But at where he was, he was totally helpless.

Like most guys whose girlfriends broke up with them over National Service, he should have hated her, for forsaking their 7-year relationship over a short-lived happiness. For abandoning him at such a time, when he was so helpless. But he didn’t.

For days on end, he thought of her consistently. He tried to contact her after that email, but she was way too determined to put their past behind. There were times when he felt suicidal, for he had absolutely no one to turn to, and his dream of marrying Germaine was shattered.

Recently, he came back to Singapore. For that few months overseas, Kelvin was miserable. Though they lost contact with each other, he still pines for her daily. He didn’t attempt to look for her, for he was apprehensive of what he might see.

It would certainly take him a long while to let go of their past, but he would never forget the beautiful memories they once shared. "Are you living well?" he thought to himself. Kelvin’s only wish for her, is for her to be happy. To love, is not to possess.

*****

I heard this true story over radio when I went home by bus the other day. I was all teary when the deejay narrated Kelvin’s story into a music diary piece. I added in some extra details to the story to make it more interesting (hope you’ve not fallen asleep!!), but I didn’t plagiarise this from anywhere!

I was thinking to myself that Germaine’s new boyfriend had better be cautious. For if there’s a day where he has to be away for quite some time, she can always find someone new, in order to avoid loneliness and whatnot. Short-lived happiness?

Writing this story out still brings a tear to my eye. =/

My colleague was asking whether I slept well, because my eyes seemed swollen. And I thought my eyes always seemed swollen since they are so puny and have single eyelids. Hehe.

*****

I’ve just received the 6th box of mooncakes on behalf of my department. My my, this temptation is too hard to bear. Anyone wants to take some of them home to eat at the void deck with your significant other? *Laughs*

*drools* I can never resist snowskin mooncakes.

*****

Just realised something very, very coincidental. It’s a small world, after all. =P

人们是否常常以小人之心, 度君子之腹? 有些事挺能让我啼笑皆非的.

突然想到唐伯虎的一首诗, 诗里是这样写的…

天时不测多风雨, 人事难量多龃龉,
天时人事两不齐, 莫把春光付流水.
好花难种不长开, 少年易老不重来.
人生不可花前醉, 花笑人生也是痴.

掌控权, 其实并不在任何人身上. 怎么? 今天的我竟然这么诗情画意? 一年前的历史在我眼前, 像似电影般的在上映, 感觉好像再一次回到过去.

人不在, 心在. 留不住, 也放不开. 是终结吗? 还是刚刚开始?

我的心真的受伤了 - 张学友

窗外阴天了音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎麽你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了是你变了
灯光熄灭了音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

"It doesn’t matter how you win a singing competition. So long if you’ve won, you’ve won."

It was one of the phrases that one of the Superstar judges love to say. First time anyone made me cry with his or her singing [amongst people I personally know].

=/

*****

Went to watch RED EYE with my mum. The plot is a pretty short one, but it captured the audience’s attention. We had our butts sat at the edge of the seats all the time.

It’s like most of the movie-goers would mutter "urgh, kuai dian, kuai dian!!" and later yell out a soft "YES!!" when the female lead managed to get away from the bad guy’s clutches in the nick of the time. Hehe..

When I scrutinised the registration form at dinner, I realised the closing date for registration for PartyWorld’s Be a Star was 31st Aug. Someone lied to me!! But perhaps it was a misunderstanding, but I should have known better than to trust a guy who loves to play pranks on people. Sigh.

It’s no big deal to most people, but it is one serious thing to me. The feeling is like one having to format his or her computer with all the pictures, documents, etc not backed-up yet.

Regina: It’s like you missed the registration to a ballet musical play overseas because your flight was delayed.

Di: It’s like you submitted your art piece one day late and you didn’t have the chance to have it appear in an art gallery.

Ivan: It’s like you not being able to take part in a dancing competition because it falls on the same day as your enlistment.

The only time my self-confidence increased, was when I sang on stage. In 2004, I joined Talentime for the second time in poly. A stranger came up to me 2 days after I had my turn to sing. She asked, "you sang in Talentime on Wednesday right? You sang very well!!"

Have you noticed how some young dancers look so kiddy with their body language and posture, but when they dance, it’s so professional? It’s that kind of feeling.

You cannot imagine my disappointment for not being able to take part. I’d rather they kick me out after one round, than to be late for registration. Sigh.

Teared before my movie started. Not because I wasn’t able to partake, but due to the disappointment being built up one after another.

Words can bring me down, especially yours.

*****

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken:
The crownless again shall be king.

The Lord of the Rings (1956)

*****

Discovered this literary writing when I tried to Google for the phrase "All that glisters is not gold" from Merchant of Venice.

I still remember that poem, after 9 years? Heh.

Feeling bored, decided to do this after visiting Claire’s blog. Hehe.

*****

Who’s Your Type?
A person who is kind and generous is attractive to you.
[maybe?]

How to tell someone that you love them?
Writing a letter or email is a good idea. A smart one like you will play around with words successfully.
[this is so true...]

When will you get married?
You want to be married a little sooner than most others. However, you want your marriage to be approved by others.
[very true!]

The Fallen Key
You look attractive to a strong man who will be dependable.
[Does this mean that he's dependant? Can I not attract such guys? lols.]

The Third Eye
You are scared of being cheated on by others and don’t want to be disappointed. That’s why you seem to be contented with unrequited love.
[first part is true, don't know about second part.]

The Four Paintings
The first qualification that you want from your partner is:

Money: your partner has to be well-to-do.
[Nope, he doesn't have to be well-to-do, just well-off, and must be able to support himself.]

The cave you’d like to visit
It’s about your spending habit:

Your spending pattern is always in sync with your income. You know what and how to spend.
[most of the time this is true.]

Ice Cream Cone Test
You’re a socialite. You go out to a party frequently and hang around with lots of people. You’re very enthusiastic, ambitious and love challenges.
[I'm not a social butterfly!]

How attractive are you?
Quite Good

You can easily attract the opposite sex but you don’t easily fall into a love trap. Your sense of humor makes people want to be around you. Being with you is so much fun!
[hmm, not sure, hehe.]

Why do you love someone?
You think he or she is a very smart one. You love his/her brain.
[somewhat true.]

The secret of the fourth coin
It would be very difficult for you to fall in love with someone. But when you love, honesty is your first priority. You are an emotional person.
[I tend to like people easily. Falling in love is hard, yes. Honesty is important to me, yes. Emotional, yes.]

What is your spending style?
Your smart spending score: 60%

You are an average person. Your spending is in line with the amount of money you have. You would save when required and spend when necessary.
[true!]

How do you choose your soulmate?
The decisions you have made indicates your criteria in choosing your soulmate.

More important matters come first on the list below:
1) Education
2) Love
3) Appearance
4) Money
[what do you think?]

The Smiling Elephant
You are happiest when you’re on a trip.

Even zookeepers would have trouble figuring out why an elephant was smiling! In other words, the answer you chose is a true reflection of what would make you happy at this moment. Imagine what would put a smile on your face–and make it a reality.
[VERY TRUE! I'm like a kid, always happy to go on trips. Hehe.]

What are you going to do on Sunday?
About money, you spend as little as possible.

Sunday is the day you are free to use however you want. Having freedom to do whatever you want is like having money to spend. Becoming good at managing your finances is an important step towards independence. What do you think of your money spending habits?
[YEAH!]

What’s in the box?
You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.

People often attribute unexpected events to good luck or bad luck. When something goes well, it’s because of good luck. When things turn sour, it’s plain bad luck. Your answer reveals what kind of luck (what’s inside the box) you think will befall you in an unexpected circumstance (the box on the road).
[I agree.]

A present for your friend
You tend to think about others’ feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

By stating what kind of gift you would give to a good friend, you are actually revealing how you relate to others. However, it doesn’t really matter what you give someone - it’s the thought that counts. If you care enough to give something, your friend will get the message. The dual acts of giving and receiving are, together, one of the finest pleasures and one of the best forms of communication that friends share.
[I love my friends!]

Emotion Test
Your emotional controlled rate: 43%

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.

Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.
[sometimes society don't allow you to showcase your true emotions all the time.]

Crossing a River
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you make opportunities to interact with many people through club activities or a hobby, then select someone you like.
[maybe?]

The Zoo
You want to put in a minimum amount of effort in life generally.

When you are at the zoo, you are surrounded by caged creatures that you can’t talk with, and which can’t communicate with you. This fact subconsciously governs the way you act. It is very similar to how you act in human society as well. In other words, your actions reveal the hidden side of your personality.
[Zoo brings nice memories back! And this is generally true, I don't want to put in too much effort, lazy me. Hehe.]

What kind of chair do you prefer?
You want your partner to do more for you.
[yeah!]

The Animal Test
1. A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who have a split personality; cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being moody. Blowing hot and cold in love is exciting.
3. The impression you’d like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful.
4. One reason that would make you break up with your partner is his or her being ruthless, cold-blooded or ironic.
5. The kind of relationship you’d like to build with your partner is a relationship that makes you always feel warm and in love.
6. Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn’t do anything wrong after marriage.
7. About marriage, you are afraid of marriage. You think it would take away your freedom.
8. About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.
[For me to find out, for you to know!]

The Most Miserable
You are a person with full of ambitions and creativity. You are very concerned about changes happening around you. You are also a very temperamental person.

YOUR LOVE

If you are a gay or lesbo, sorry it’s not the real you!
Did you notice that you are a "hot target" among the opposite sex?

You can easily attract the opposite sex. Basically you are a very popular person, so many people like to chat with you.
[well... where's the real me?! =P]

Colors and Names
The one who will never forget you is Yuhui.
The one who you can consider as your real friend is Meifang.
The one you really love is BB.
This may be your soulmate: Xiaohui.
The one you will remember for the rest of your life is Shurui.
[what do you think?]

Which animals do you like most?
Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.
More important matters come first on the list below:
1. Love
2. Career
3. Family
4. Pride
5. Money
[nod nod.]

One Word to Oneself
- Your own personality is loyal.
- Your partner’s personality is arrogant.
- Your enemy’s personality is scheming.
- What you think about sex is awakening.
- What you think about your own life is calm.
[fainted.]

Which colors do you like most?
Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.
More important matters come first on the list below:
1. Friends and relationships
2. Passion
3. Death
4. Marriage
5. Career
[why is my career always the last?!]

Psychological Test
- You have a complicated personality.
- How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: middle.
- You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
- Diamond means stubborn personality.
- You are also down-to-earth.
- You are an opportunist.
- Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.
[sort of.]

*****

That’s enough! =P Try some for yourself. Quite interesting. =P

This was made from one of my display pictures in MSN. Nice right? If you enlarge the picture by clicking on it, you can see letters, numbers and special characters.

Yesterday after receiving a bombshell at work, which led me to be so despaired and bent on quitting, I went to meet my friends for dinner and KTV [my favourite activity!!].

I reached the place [Outram] earliest, and waited for the rest to come by. Noel and Dexiong messaged me at the same time, asking where I was. -.-"

And then as I walked back to Outram [from Pearl Centre, since I thought I could stroll for a while first], I saw Noel. Waste my sms!!! Since we met up before he read my message of my whereabouts. -.-"

The whole direction-giving thing, was a real mess. -.-" Dexiong insisted that we should meet him at the NEL control station, for it was nearer to Cha Xuan, but we [Noel, Yuhui and I] went for dinner at Burger King first, that’s why why chose to alight at East West Line’s control station.

It’s funny how Yuhui knows directions well, and the 2 guys doesn’t. What’s the world coming to?! LOLs.

That stupid girl [just kidding, Yuhui!] was meeting someone else later on, and so she had to leave earlier. By the time we went to meet up with Dexiong [an ex pen pal], it was already 8 plus. So that girl left before warming up her seat. -.-" Gee.

When I heard a few of them sing [especially the girls], I was so stunned. Superstar is nothing. The girls there can really sing! So many people in the world, even in Singapore, can sing! Especially the girls!!

Yuhui left before it was our table’s turn. Wonder who’s she meeting? =D Poor girl, she was being read like a book by that Noel. Oops, I’m not supposed to blog it down. Muwahaha. Or rather, I’m not supposed to tell her! =P

Lalala~

Dexiong’s another friend came by much later. I think her name is Catherine, if I am not wrong. She brought a friend along, so I think most of the time she only talked to her friend ah…

There’s one cartoon character, an Uncle who seemed to be a regular there. Basically he "flirted" with a few girls there. -.-" Gee. But it’s because of people like him that makes the place happening. Else, people would be stuck in their own seats with no interaction at all. Come to think of it, he sort of behaved as though he was the boss [but I think he knows the boss, being a regular there].

I was damn nervous for my first song, after hearing how some people there sang so well. -.-" My nervousness was like so darn obvious!!! Sang "xin bu liao qing" for my first song, and then I could hear my heart thumping. -.-" Gee.

Noel was like telling me to relax [like how?!] and to pretend they are all invisible [like how!?]. My hands weren’t shaking, but my voice was trembling. -.-" So paiseh.

The Uncle came over, tried to "gan bei" with me, cause he said I sang well! -.-" Cartoon lah him.

After singing one more song, it was more or less OK for me. I need to warm up to soothe my nerves.

Dexiong was like telling me that he couldn’t sing, but he sang a little better than most guy friends of mine. His friend Emily is quite a good singer too! Everyone sings so well!! Hehe… I love KTV sessions with people who can sing well! It’s a big enjoyment!!! Oh yah, I wonder why Emily thought I was Noel’s gf? *wonder*

Noel’s first song was "ta lai ting wo de yan chang hui" by Jacky Cheung. I was rather taken aback when he opened his golden mouth. First time I heard him sing at KTV. It was like 10 times much better than he sounded over the phone, and 20 times better than his 4 a.m. version of his Jay Chou song. LOL.

He said he was nervous singing too. -.-" He sure can hide well. -.-" Think out of all the guys there, he probably sounded the nicest. Aww.

He will clear 5 rounds of that Partyworld KTV competition easily! Without much effort!! His audition and homen’s second audition is on the same day!! Same time!!! Same place!! One stone kill two birds ah. Maybe I should stick to being part of the audience, and save my $20 registration fees. =D

Lalala~

First time I enjoyed singing duets! Usually I’ll sing duets with girls since I don’t have much guys friends. Rather, all my group clicks consist of girls.

Sang "ni zui zhen gui" with Noel. Actually Emily and Dexiong sang first, it was nearly 11pm then, almost the time Noel and I were going off, so we suggested that we share the song with them.

NICE!! I totally enjoyed that song!!! *melts* Singing duets, is a matter of coordination and chemistry. Okay, so I didn’t know the tune well. -.-" Made a few mistakes here and there, but overall, it was great! Noel, ni jiao dao you fang!

*****

My second duet was with Emily, and we sang "lian ai ping lu". I envy those who have wide vocal ranges, and she was one of those. So in the song she took on the guy’s part, and I sang the female part. It was atrocious for me, for it was the first time I sang that song. -.-" Totally disastrous. Haha.

Noel was like trying so hard to guide me towards how the tune went, but still, the blockhead me couldn’t really catch it lah. -.-"

*****

By the way, why do all guys love to talk about NS and army stuffs? Given the position I was seated [wedged between the 2 guys in a straight row], it was like there was 2 loudspeakers on both ends! Haha. So funny. -.-" [Note for the slow: I'm being sarcastic, hehe.]

*****

Overall, the place was quite alright, but towards the end of our stay there, smoke got into my eyes. -.-" Crappy Noel was like saying, "Now you know where the song ‘Smoke gets in your eyes’ comes from…" Duh!!

Oh yah, by the way, I drank Blue Lagoon. It was one of my favourites, other than Snowball. =D I love cocktails! Woohoo!

Stayed there till 1 plus. Emily stay near Tiong Bahru, so she left in a cab first. The 3 of us, Dexiong, Noel and I, were like "debating" who to drop off first, since we all live in the west [Bt Gombak, CCK and JW respectively]. Imagine 3 direction-idiots trying to figure out this little directional discussion.

So I let the guys do their jobs, instead. I was happily on the phone, chatting with that Yuhui who was happily staying out [with who ah? =P], near that 24hr coffee shop near my place. -.-"

I was dropped off first! Muwahaha. Yeah, blame me for living so far!! HEHE. Nice. I look forward to more such KTV sessions!! Woohoo!

*****

Something happened along the way which affected my mood a little. Singing can really take my mind away from worries and negative thoughts, but it sort of came back with just that few SMSes.

My mood’s certainly better now, compared to the past 3 months. But am I really happier than before? I certainly hope so, I don’t want to remain sad forever. I don’t want to tear daily. I finally understood what it meant, when people said, "love is not about possession".

Don’t lie to yourself in order to reassure others. =) Be yourself.

I’ll still be there for you as a friend, if you ever need me. That’s my promise to you. =)