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I’m a bad bad boy in a bad, bad world!!

Doesn’t this remind you of Corpse Bride?


Cute guitarist!

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Personally, I quite like the bride avatar I did!!

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Few days ago, I was surfing Friendster and I realised my friend got attached pretty recently. The girlfriend looked rather mature and familiar, but I couldn’t link her face to anyone I knew.

Later, I happened to chance upon the same photo in another friend’s list of friends. Both the boyfriend and the girlfriend were using the same photo. It suddenly struck me that it was the same girl I knew.

So the thing is, I didn’t have a good impression of this girl, and many others thought the same of her too. Her coquettish behaviour influenced my willingness to befriend her properly. Please note that all these comments are my own opinionated comments though.

I can’t help it but feel uneasy about their union. Let’s just hope she’s serious about him this time round. Whether she gave me a bad impression or not, that’s just my own perception. My friend has to know her himself and form his own perception, without basing it on mine or anyone else’s. =)

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Saw a JC friend at Jurong Point a few days back. Was quite surprised to see him, and he spoke to me first, after seeing how I stared at him, and giving him the "I think I know you" look.

Our friendship was like the Bell Curve theory he had, where his friendships would go through an improving relationship, reach its peak, and stumble, never to recover again. So we kind of lost contact in a way.

But I could never forget what he said to me in a drunken stupor a few years back. =)

I have no idea why, but his friendster photos look so different [and suave!] from the time I knew him, and this time round at our chance encounter.

Am a little disappointed that we’re now merely acquaintances with next-to-none contact. Oh well, sometimes, things in life are just not meant to be. =)

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On a hindnote, I’ve been feeling rather anti-social lately. Don’t even feel like taking the initiative to SMS or call anyone at all. And the Nokia 8310 is making me less willing to even reply SMS!

I have to send my Nokia 3230 to the Nokia Care Centre soon. I’ve been told [through an email reply from Nokia Careline], and *#7370# doesn’t help, as my phone runs on shared memory, and that function merely does a soft reset for the phone.

The good side of it, they might be able to clean up the dust particles on the phone! Yay!

Halloween’s coming! *turns into a blood thirsty vampire* Muwahaha!

Unless I have valid reasons, I won’t really travel to the east. Though Singapore is a pretty small island, I find it tiring to travel to the east just "for fun". Despite having a few friends living in the east, travelling there just gives me the shudders.

Last Thursday I attended a piano concert [courtesy of Regina!] by a very talented guy whose name was Yoka No [or something]. He delivered his music with his heart and soul, despite not being able to see with his eyes. The free concert was held at Singapore Soka Association [at Tampines], which I think is a branch of Buddhism.

Since young, I’ve always wanted to learn how to play the piano, and when I told this "wish" to my friend [who learnt piano for more than a decade], she told me that people can still learn even at the age of 30 or so. I wished I had the innate musical talent to learn how to play musical instruments, since interest alone is pretty hard unless you work on it diligently.

Saw Inez’s boyfriend for the first time on Thursday. They look like such a cute couple, but then again, my cuteness somehow surpasses theirs! =x I still can imagine how she threw me that "cheeky" look when she saw me… Haha. But it’s not what you think it is.

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Attended Yuhui’s maternal grandmother’s wake at Kallang on Friday. I have this tendency to be pretty reserved at wakes because I didn’t think fooling around was appropriate at such a timing.

Then again, it might lighten the mood and tension a little in some ways. It feels very queasy when someone you know or have seen before, passes on. Despite only visiting Yuhui’s grandma with her once, I feel a tinge of forlorn to know that someone I’ve seen before is gone now.

Mortality is part and parcel of life, yet I can’t help but feel dejected at the thought of the fragility and shortness of life. That’s precisely why life is precious. To those who have a long way to go, please value life, it is something so miraculously wonderful! =)

I’m that emotional when it comes to letting go. Once I even cried over the demise of my lecturer’s precious dog, which I’ve never seen before. It was as if I could feel the way she felt, despite seeing her put on a brave front and behaving as though everything was alright.

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Anyway, Yuhui was jokingly asking her mother to take me as her god-daughter since the latter found me so likeable she started carressing me [on my arms] repeatedly. She kept saying I was nice to touch and so fair, and becoming prettier [*blush*]. Quite interesting that out of all the girls [in the clique], her mum seem to like me best.

Before we went off, she held on to me, and asked me to call Yuhui up to chat, so that she [Yuhui's mum] could talk to me on the phone. O.o

She’s the 4th person this week to comment that I am fair. I have no idea why I’m becoming fairer, maybe I’m getting impartial? Haha, what a silly pun. =P

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Then on Saturday, [my ex-colleagues and] I went to Yvonne’s 21st birthday party at the Safra Resort in Tanah Merah. Considering that this girl lives so near me, and that she is someone who hates travelling the distance, that choice must be one of the last she would pick.

Saw her "celebrity" boyfriend Zaizai for the first time, and finally we could put a face to the sweet character we’ve heard about so far. =)

Her dad’s another sweet guy, who made her a gigantic key using wood. It looked so nice, that I swear I would have thought it was professionally made!

We [Zane, Joleen and I] gave her a set of 5 nail polish from Anna Sui, whereas Julie decided to buy her own present from Little Match Girl. Hope she likes the present we got for her! =D

Her party was kind of tame, since many of her friends couldn’t really make it, and some just came at odd timings. Cake cutting was at 10pm, and too bad we didn’t get a chance to see all her presents!

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Colleagues are starting to take their compliance leave one after another, and thus, for work process wise, I’m finding it a little unbearable. Just had a very bad experience today, due to an oversight. It’s hard to put my finger to it, but let’s just say that the mistake didn’t begin from me, but somehow I was too used to doing the same things over and over again that my assumptions were wrong this time round.

Sent an email to a company who wasn’t supposed to know about an event, as per my colleague’s instructions. Towards the later part of the day, we found out that the colleague [who went on Compliance Leave] had unique emails to send out to different companies! My bad, because all the while I have been helping another colleague to send emails of similar nature, out to the companies directly! And he always use the same format for ALL companies!

For those who caught nothing to what I’m saying, just think of it as such that I got involved and had a part to play in a mistake that didn’t begin with me.

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Last Saturday was an unbearable night that led me to feel so lost and running about in circles. I have to find the strength to carry on independently. Now that I have this phobia that I can’t get rid of, I don’t know what I can do to alleviate anything.

I do feel misunderstood, but I can’t simply cannot blame others for that misunderstanding, despite knowing the fact that I didn’t cause it to arise.

Have to really take some time to lull and think things through. I should prioritise the important stuffs so that I can solve things one by one. Give me the strength to carry on, I do not want to fall once again.

- Test Name: Strategic Alliances with Competitors
- Date: 2005-10-16 21:16
- Test Time: 3 MINUTES
- Gross Speed: 84 WPM
- Errors: 3
- Accuracy: 98%

- NET SPEED: 83 WPM

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I used to type 25 words per minute in Secondary 2 [during computer lessons]. Is my current speed supposed to be accurate? =P From time to time I’ll test my typing speed for fun! I think my average should be around 70 wpm? I love typing! =D

This road is going to be so tough to tread on. I can’t really complain much if no one actively supports what I’m doing, but I would really be glad if you could keep your displeasure to yourself, instead of drilling negative information into my head and keep pouring cold water on me.

I’m not exactly sure of my directions in life right now, and what’s causing me worries, are my career and my complicated ‘love‘ life. Haha. No one exactly knows what’s going on [not even my closest friends], except for myself, which is why I’m constantly feeling so overwhelmed.

In any case, right now I feel like a celebrity whose life is under constant scrutiny by the concerned public.

Shall adopt the doctrine of hedonism from now on. =)

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T’was the first time I couldn’t speak,
What is this, the answer that I seek?
For a stint, I stood up, yet now I tumble,
From this moment on, my life’s a slumber.

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You are the grass-fragrance type

"You have very strong will, not dependent on others and gives an impression of being a lone-ranger. You are extremely curious and sensual, living a clear-headed, modern life. At first glance you place yourself on a pedestal, and are difficult to get along. But once others talk to you, they know you are easygoing. And when the relationship develops, they realise you are affable. You have an androgynous charm, which makes you popular with all genders. But you don’t like your weak side to be seen. You might look cool on the surface, but beneath it all, you are really passionate. Only people who know your true self can maintain a long-lasting relationship with you."

Got that from an email [if you're interested, I'll send you the email!]. Super accurate, apart from the part where it says I’m popular. =)

Am I good at taking care of others? This is a test to see how much you care about people and stuff around you. Follow the English letter you reached to see how much you care.

About 120 percent.
Regardless of what happens, you will never forget to care about others. You must be really happy to hear comments such as "You are so understanding and caring!". Taking care of others is probably your most important task. But sometimes, you really care too much. For example, if you joke around people who are upset, then you’d probably end up hurting them instead. So the best way to take care of people, is to show your care naturally.

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The last part is pretty true, I guess? I always have the tendency to cheer people up with lame jokes, and somehow it always backfires, and the person ends up more sore than before. -.-"

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In terms of relationship, one form of bliss would be the fact that one could devote himself or herself fully to the relationship, knowing that the significant other will do the same too.

I’m playing with fire, and I’m sinking in quicksand. Can’t help but think this is a splendid excuse.

By the way, if you can’t read the appended lyrics, please click on View [top left of browser], Encoding, Unicode to read.

张学友 - 咖啡

太浓了吧否则怎会苦的说不出话
每次都一个人在自问自答
我们的爱到底还在吗
已经淡了吧多放些糖也很难有变化
不如喝完这杯就各自回家
别坐在对面欣赏我的挣扎
一场失败的爱情像个笑话
热得时候心乱如麻
冷了以后看见自己够傻
人怎么会如此容易无法自拔
一场无味的爱情像个谎话
甜的时候只相信它
苦了以后每一句都可怕
人怎么会如此难以了无牵挂

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Saw my 2 poly lecturers at Suntec after my lunch, and after a simple game of Puzzle Fighter to destress.

I could only recognise Dory, and I didn’t know the lady standing beside her was Pingster!! So coincidental! Rushed forward, and brimming with all the excitement and such, I greeted them.

You should have seen my excited mode. I was waving my hands madly and opening my eyes wide in amazement [that feat alone, is amazing]. =P

It turned out that they travelled so far for lunch as it is term break now, and they thought of coming to Suntec with the other few lecturers to enjoy their lunch.

Pingster said I look different, I look prettier [*beams*] and mature. Dory shot in, "Ya, mature means you look older!" Dots. Thanks huh, Dory. =P

This nostalgic feeling is pretty heartwarming. The two lecturers were part of a few who made my poly studies pretty interesting in certain ways. =D Hehe…

They still remember that I used to do cyber deejaying! Apparently, someone told them that I do cyber deejaying. But they can’t remember who, and I have no idea who too. *puzzled*

Dory was commenting that she still keep my number [and the sweet text messages I've sent her]! =D Hehe… Awww. I just love this kind of warmth. =)

You are 28.57% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
411549 people have taken this test to date.

This percentage means that :
- You have very few jealous traits.
- You rarely over-react and have a handle on the severity of situations.
- Whatever jealous attributes you do have will not present a problem in relationships, and will sometimes help.

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So my jealousy level [as from the test result] is below average. And I thought I do get jealous readily… Maybe not, I guess? =D Got this test from Yuhui. What’s your jealousy level?

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Was out celebrating Regina’s 21st birthday [in advance] with the birthday girl-to-be and Inez. Found out that the two of them are so much better at Pool than me!!

As usual, I always hit the white ball into the pockets. -.-" Always commit foul! Grr. Got Regina a sling bag, and I’m glad she like it!

All along I thought of getting her a bag! =D I can predict minds! *lame*

Had our dinner at Pastamania, and I ate the Chocolate Banana Pizza for dessert. Still taste so damn nice! =D Spent the whole time there laughing like mad girls, teasing one another. -.-"

I’m happy for Inez!! *chants* "George, George, George of the Jungle!!" hehe.. Congrats, Babe. =P

It’s been a long time since I last blogged here. Didn’t even have time to online, much less to blog! Hehe.. I need a new computer! Anyone has money to donate? Haha…