Serendipity

As more and more people have blogs, communication tends to be less personalised nowadays. I seem to get more updates from friends’ blogs than the horses’ mouths.

Not that it is a bad thing, since it’s pretty tiring to repeat things a myriad number of times to different groups of people. Like for my case, most of the time I’d forget whether I’ve said a certain something to someone.

I used to remember when Regina said that she would tell one of her friends about something, and she would say, "Yah, I know, read it from your blog!" That being the case as she didn’t realise her blog was so wide-read by so many friends of hers.

Still, blogging shouldn’t be the only or main avenue where people let known of their true feelings. Then again, I articulate better in writing than spoken words.

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It’s been a long time [more than a week] since I last came online at home. Hence all the blog-reading and checking of emails is on a hiatus. But I’d still read everything diligently eventually.

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Clubbing has never been my cup of tea. Yet I visited a club [for the virgin time] on Friday night. My buddies and I were supposed to meet up early to go Zouk for a couple of drinks.

Initially I wasn’t that keen on going, because I would be financially tight soon, and also because I don’t really dance anyway.

Zouk had a long queue by the time we arrived. So there was a change of plans, and we visited Devil’s Bar as a "last resort", since it shouldn’t have that much of a queue.

Ben came to meet us up first, since Yuhui wanted to finish her Survivor before meeting us up. Had my only glass of alcoholic drink for the day [Vodka Lime], and although I could have much more, I stuck only to that house pour drink complimentary of that entrance ticket.

Yuhui had around 5 drinks, and Meifang had around 3? -.-"

Basically it was too noisy for any chatting at all, and in the end we went on the dance floor to shake our butts for a while.

I love "dancing", but dancing is a very private thing for me. While the two girls tried to make me dance on top of the raised platform with them, I rejected their kind request. -.-"

Had my share of fun, but I don’t supposed I’d take a liking to clubbing. Hehe. But the company was good. =) I love you, my friends! *Muacks*

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Imagine we got home by cab that late [good thing we stay so near one another], and in a few hours we were to meet up to go JB for lunch! =P

Had a few hours of sleep, and I awoke in the morning to be the second to arrive. Amazingly, Yuhui was the first to arrive! We were wrong to doubt you, to presume that you would be late. =P

Had our Ho Seng Kee wanton noodles in JB [the stall's near Holiday Plaza], and following that we had our KTV session somewhere in City Square, I think? I love KTV-ing! It was only until a few years later that I realised I actually love singing. =)

Wanted to buy bags, but hesitated when I saw bags I thought I like. Most of the time after I make my purchase, I’ll end up wondering why I buy them in the first place. -.-"

So I got my dangling earrings which I wanted to get for a long time [since I lost one of a pair the other time] and my new anklet! =P Love it to bits! The only part I don’t like, is the noisy bells, hence I had to silence it with a small piece of adhesive tape! =P The ingenious me at work! *winks*

Didn’t spend much in the end, but spent a fair share of money on food! =P

Had Japanese food at a restaurant nearby [forgot the name of the restaurant], and Meifang and I had Japanese curry rice [Tori Katsu]! Yummy! *drools*

I love Japanese curry as it isn’t as spicy as normal curry. [And I'm reminded of how the lunch kaki remembers that I don't take very spicy food! Aww.]

Got back to Singapore in the night, all of us pretty tired, since we didn’t have much sleep the previous night [or should I say morning?]. =P

I love the part where we didn’t have to care about our daily stuffs, and merely enjoyed the little holiday laughing ourselves crazy.

And I still want to buy bags. -.-"

It’s Harry’s Fourth Year at Hogwart’s School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, and he is worried about this year. He has been having bad dreams of two men plotting murders. Harry is invited by Ron Weasley to got to the Quidditch World Cup. At the cup, strange things happen, and what is called the "Dark Mark" appears over the stadium. Once he gets to Hogwarts, everyone finds out that the school is hosting the TriWizard Tournament, a competition between Hogwarts, Beauxbatons Academy, and Durmstrang Institute.

Only one thing is certain, Harry is going to have his greatest challenge yet.

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Due to the nature of my job, I’ve had the privilege of being treated to the movie screening of Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire on the first day itself.

Despite me not knowing exactly who the characters are, I thought the show was pretty entertaining in terms of the plot, the effects, and the emotion-stirring scenes.

If anyone noticed, I jumped quite a few times when things suddenly popped out. -.-" And this is not even a horror or scary movie.

Harry Potter fanatics, who have read the book over and over again, would know exactly what was to go on in the movie. Of course, the print-to-screen rendition of Harry Potter would be a special focus on the highlights more so than the nitty gritty details.

But still, there are some who would "complain" that the show should be much longer than 2.5 hours.

Pretty touching scenes here and there, I supposed it’ll be a box office hit because of the fan base of the [series of] books. Certain parts were pretty cliched and predictable even though I’ve never read the book before, or am not really interested in fantasy tales.

I give it an 8 out of 10 [also because I watched it free! =X]. Go watch it if you can!

Read about the spoilers here!

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Comfort Zone [noun]: An environment or situation in which a person feels secure or at ease; also figuratively, an established lifestyle in which a person feels comfortable as long as there is no drastic change.

Changes are part and parcel of life. They are the only constant in our ever-changing world. It takes a great deal of effort and time for me to adapt to new things, and very often, I get too overwhelmed and give up.

There are a few reasons why people would resort to lying. First, in order to get what they want. Second, they lie because they don’t want the other party to get hurt unwittingly. Third, they just want to get away from unnecessary trouble.

I’m the only one who can give myself happiness. Yet what I’m doing is detrimental to my own happiness. Don’t want to be controlled. =) Focusing on the wrong things can be very disastrous. I’m at a loss of what to do now.

The Comfort Zone is becoming less and less comfortable for me to stay in it willingly. You have a place in my heart, and it will forever be so.

有生以来，这段日子，是我过得最痛苦的。总是以为“被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦”的我，终于了解，被两个人爱，格外的肝肠寸断。

好辛苦，好痛苦。

想了结生命，省得天天为此事烦恼。

不是吧？为了感情的不悦就想摧毁宝贵的生命？但，到底有谁知道我有多痛苦？你们俩儿，都要我做出抉择。到了这个时候，压力倍增。

一个是我[依然]深爱的人，我们之间的记忆，像烙映在身上的疤痕，想要忘记，谈何容易？好不容易，我们走了这么远，就这样放弃?

一个是非常了解我的人，一个我不能舍弃的人。我不需说任何事，你都能知道我的想法。就连我最亲的家人或朋友都没能像你这样了解我。

时间之错误吧。

滔滔大哭了一个小时。眼角还是悬挂着几滴泪珠。脑海总是浮现一些坏的影响。需要作主的人，背负着格外重大的责任。

眼泪不听使唤，一直落下。

好乱。

心里一片挣扎。

我以为维持现状，虽然是自私了点，但，只要我快乐，不就行了吗？双方面给予的压力，让我好难承受。为何不能无条件的付出呢？但，一女不能有二夫。

名份，真的有这么重要吗？

难道说，硬逼我做出选择，一方取胜，另一方连和我在一起都不能，比较妥当？

死不能解决问题。但是，我就是想逃避。因为我一个人，使得两个人那么的懊恼，我深感愧疚。不知道你们对于我的感触，了解多少？口口声声说，想看见我快乐就行了，但我承受的压力和痛苦，是你们的双倍。你们知道吗？

为什么不能给我多一点时间呢？一个老是提出放弃我，从此不再和我联络。另一个老是说不能不间断的等下去。似乎最好的抉择，就是两个都不要。=）

去想想吧，为什么我就是不能选择其一？

坦白一句，都没安全感吧。不能百分之一百把我自己呈现给任何一方。笑话，我根本没资格聊安全感，根本配不上你们两儿。

要不是得报父母的养育之恩，朋友的关怀与爱护，我恐怕已经屈服了。

很可笑吧？感情的事，能把我避风？还没提金钱，家庭，友谊，教育，工作上的烦恼呢。事事都不顺着我，好没信心面对。

窗外的天空，像我的生命一样黑。是否“走出去就有路”？哈哈，“跳出去就有路？”

我快要崩溃了。

Leave me alone.