Archive for January, 2007

Friendship with the girls

Sunday, January 28th, 2007

Seriously, I wish I was born a guy. Or rather, maybe it was easier to keep in contact with guys.

Somehow or rather, when guys meet up with guys, there is a higher probability of getting it done, rather than amongst girls.

Girls always have their other halves to meet up with. Girls have their families to attend to, when they are married. Sometimes it gets so disappointing, if you organise often.

Dar’s friends meet up every now and then, some of them female, some of them male. There are some friends I wish I could meet up with, like what, once in 2 years?! And yet it’s so hard to meet up with them.

Compromise. Time can always be scheduled. Certainly, for those with prior birthday meetings, family outings, work commitments, studies, those take priority. But can’t you give up a Saturday with your other halves for your friends whom you haven’t met for 2 years?! Sigh.

That’s why I always think it’s easier for the busiest people to plan gatherings, since the free ones would be easiest to agree to any dates.

习惯失恋 - 容祖儿

Thursday, January 18th, 2007

不拖手或者都可堪称热恋
一拖手比咳嗽更短
太快了我未快乐过已失恋
想不起被爱是如何温暖
想不通未够资格使你心软
但也知道心会这么酸
理所当然我的错
令你忽然离开半路留下我
令你忽然离开也是我错么
为何这么快看清楚
落得这结果
知我是个无法讨好的人
相恋一刻只是我的侥幸
然而回头诚实去自问
我可讨厌到如此乞你憎
知我连眼泪也绝不感人
只知怎么考验你的操行
从前为何缠在你附近
你不寂寞便嫌我笨
难道我未够好未懂得热吻
足够令你怜悯勾不起你的兴奋
不担心自尊心这么受损
只担心我将我看穿
我怕我以后太习惯了失恋
更加速发觉原本都不相衬
我未够吸引
你未够狠
到底这个故事有没有发生
何必受罪心即使碎一碎
我仍能继续追
愿那一刻共聚
不懂的怎去相爱
爱人难我肯学
定能爱下去

It’s been a LONG time since I’ve last learnt how to sing a Cantonese song. Came across this song, and kind of liked it after listening to it once. Hence felt determined to learn how to sing, despite me being a total idiot when it comes to Cantonese.

I can understand a little conversational Cantonese but I can’t speak at all. :D So there.

Click here to hear this song. :)

I shall sing it the next time I go KTV!

Understanding Psychology

Tuesday, January 9th, 2007

Before you start to raise an eyebrow and speculate whether I’m interested in Psychology, you have somewhat formed an impression just by me naming the topic as ‘Understanding Psychology’. I’ve ever wondered how it would be like to study Psychology, but I guess basic understanding of the human minds, needs no concrete studying.

Noel, who’s presently balancing slavery and Psychological Studies [read: He’s majoring in Psychology], once told me that at times the topics that I talk about, is somewhat related to his studies. Just that my thoughts were raw, with no flamboyant jargons, and can’t be sorted into theories, such as Freudian’s. Then I’ll cheekily say back, “See! I also can come up with something like that what, no need to pay to study Psychology!”

Of course, that being said, what everyone knows about living things [humans, animals, plants, etc] is just the tip of the iceberg. The intrinsic values of Psychology can be found in every living being, and with much exploration, you can do more than you ever thought.


I am capable of profound and deep thoughts, just that my child-like behaviour does not reflect what goes on in my thought daily. I prefer to call this, ‘Flexibility’. :p After all, I know this is me, something I’ll remain as when I reach my 60-year-old mark.

*****

I was conversing with my colleague [Yes, you, Shiliang, if you’re reading this] yesterday, about our perception of the same person. She told me, “I can finally understand what you said about X!”. These were not her exact words and tone, but yeah, it was somewhere close. The ‘X’ in question here, is someone we both know, albeit me knowing the person earlier than Shiliang (SL).

So sometimes I’ll pour my ‘woes’ to SL over MSN, and shei’ll remain neutral. It was only recently that she got to know ‘X’ more, and somehow her perception of ‘X’, was something that she could relate to mine.

I’m a person who does not take my friends’ words for it, when they disparage a new, mutual friend. I believe that’s their perception of that person, and whatever experiences they had with that person, remains as theirs, not mine. Sure, I’ll take their words of caution and advice, but when it comes to making friends, I’ll like to start new, not with a clouded perception of someone.

Dar is someone who behaves like that too, and he chose to be with me despite people instilling thoughts that I’m a bad girlfriend. :)

*****

Coming back to the topic, I realize that somehow, you are not what you eat / talk / wear / etc. You are who you are, because you’re formed by people’s perceptions of you, during their experiences with you. Of course, that’s just the face value, but more often than not, a person is shaped by what people think of him.

If an innocent person was thought to be evil by 99% of the members of Earth, then can he seriously remain innocent? I doubt.

That’s how someone tend to click with a certain group, and not others. It’s the way of life.

*****

People also get assessment from different people on various aspects. You may be a good colleague, but a bad boss. A good friend, but a bad colleague. A good sibling, but a bad friend. A good husband, but a bad boyfriend. You get the drift.

So in a way, no one is exactly pure in terms of personality. We change, because of environment, values, peer pressure, etc. And change is the only constant! We’re all a cocktail of different personalities. Hmm, I think I’m drifting away from my point. :D

There’s just so much to find out about one another. Right, let me get back to work and leave early to croon for my KTV session later. Muwahaha.

Paper Chase

Sunday, January 7th, 2007

If I have ever talked about this topic, then the idea I’ve once presented, is outdated.

In the midst of chatting with Jonathan [or better known as Bear to some], this blog entry came about. All the while I’ve been chasing after my dreams of going to University, and earning my precious degree. But somehow or rather, I’ve not been doing things actively to achieve this aim.

Sometime ago, I was talking to my CPF ex-colleagues, and some of us lamented that we would never get a salary of more than $2k per month. The year was 2004. I supposed at this point in time, more than half of the 4 of us, has already achieved that mark. With only one of us having a degree.

For the few of the normal route-goers, i.e. geting flying colors during adolescent years, and getting into a good junior college, and finally into University, and graduating with a good degree.

In that sense, the extra bacon that you get per month in the working world, isn’t exactly hard to achieve. At least you don’t pay more as compared to a private degree, right?

So you come out into the working life, armed with a degree. And work life starts from there. If the working life’s good to you, promotion comes to you, and more money come rolling in.

If not, at least you’ll be contented with earning at least 2.3k per month, with a certificate [degree, not marriage, dummy!].

For people like me, who dropped out of JC [well not exactly also, because I completed JC with a not-so-desirable A-Level cert], who went to polytechnic and then started working for at least 2 years, getting back into studies, is hard. Make that DAMN HARD.

Well, I’m getting a comfortable pay right now [even with ever-rising expensies!], and I don’t see the point in wasting 30k [most of it by loan] to get a piece of paper, and getting $400 more per month that what I’m getting now.

Certainly, if I’m the type who aims to be a boss, a supervisor, to be a high-flyer, a degree would certainly help. Especially in the government sectors, which doesn’t promote non-degree holders.

But if I’m the type who would forever be a junior executive, then it’s no point being a degree holder, right? :p

Ok, now I shall go ahead and aim for a Porsche. :p

As what Darling said, I have a lot of wants. :p

"u wan lots of things, but mainly u wan to study. or at least, continue studying. but it always tends to be hard for u cos of the extra $ and time u have already spent - sec sch, jc, poly..then u still wan to get car…"

People stay alive for their dreams, right? I stay in a job I dislike, because I want to earn money to fulfil my dreams/wants.

Others forfeit their dreams, to work in something they dislike, for money.

Got difference, OK!

Marriage

Saturday, January 6th, 2007

Somehow most girls of my age, would yearn to get married, to give birth to kids and have a happy family of their own. It’s the natural order of life.

I’m no different. But I can’t help but feel that lately, it has become so commercialised that even getting married to the better half, has somehow become a pretty expensive thing to pay for.

My primary school friend, who’s the only buddy I’m in contact with, is throwing her wedding dinner on the 16th of September, 2007. She got married legally back in 2004 I think. Sometimes destiny is such a weird thing, I still remember the time I attended her ex-boyfriend’s chalet with her, and got quite close to the ex bf’s sister, who was aged 10 back then.

Thereafter, when she broke off with him, and after she got hitched again, to her second bf [her husband now], I’ve never seen him before. And within 3 months of them being together, she told me she felt that he was The One. It was a little disbelieving.

But now, it really shows that you do not need a long period of time to tell you how your other half and yourself, would turn out. Fate is such a weird thing. Hmm.

Then it suddenly dawned upon me, that somehow a few of the friends I have, who have their marital status changed to ‘married’, have very few ex-boyfriends, if none.

Nanyan and Huichuan, both got married to their first love. My friend, Baoru, got married to her second boyfriend. Shuyan got married to her first love as well.

Does that mean that my turn would come LAST? Haha. :p

And when I watched the 9pm’s ‘Million-Dollar Baby’, starring Zoe Tay and Li Nan Xing, there was this line said by a divorced lady, that sometimes the one you love may not be the one you marry. And the one you marry may not be the one you love the most. As long as you don’t abhor the idea of marrying & living in the same pad with your pursuer, why not?

Though I’m already of marriageable age, I seriously cannot fathom the day I am somebody’s wife. O.o Nor can I imagine myself to be someone’s mother. O.o

But I feel like giving birth already. Haha. :p