习惯失恋 - 容祖儿

January 18th, 2007 by elisetan

不拖手或者都可堪称热恋
一拖手比咳嗽更短
太快了我未快乐过已失恋
想不起被爱是如何温暖
想不通未够资格使你心软
但也知道心会这么酸
理所当然我的错
令你忽然离开半路留下我
令你忽然离开也是我错么
为何这么快看清楚
落得这结果
知我是个无法讨好的人
相恋一刻只是我的侥幸
然而回头诚实去自问
我可讨厌到如此乞你憎
知我连眼泪也绝不感人
只知怎么考验你的操行
从前为何缠在你附近
你不寂寞便嫌我笨
难道我未够好未懂得热吻
足够令你怜悯勾不起你的兴奋
不担心自尊心这么受损
只担心我将我看穿
我怕我以后太习惯了失恋
更加速发觉原本都不相衬
我未够吸引
你未够狠
到底这个故事有没有发生
何必受罪心即使碎一碎
我仍能继续追
愿那一刻共聚
不懂的怎去相爱
爱人难我肯学
定能爱下去

It’s been a LONG time since I’ve last learnt how to sing a Cantonese song. Came across this song, and kind of liked it after listening to it once. Hence felt determined to learn how to sing, despite me being a total idiot when it comes to Cantonese.

I can understand a little conversational Cantonese but I can’t speak at all. :D So there.

Click here to hear this song. :)

I shall sing it the next time I go KTV!

Understanding Psychology

January 9th, 2007 by elisetan

Before you start to raise an eyebrow and speculate whether I’m interested in Psychology, you have somewhat formed an impression just by me naming the topic as ‘Understanding Psychology’. I’ve ever wondered how it would be like to study Psychology, but I guess basic understanding of the human minds, needs no concrete studying.

Noel, who’s presently balancing slavery and Psychological Studies [read: He’s majoring in Psychology], once told me that at times the topics that I talk about, is somewhat related to his studies. Just that my thoughts were raw, with no flamboyant jargons, and can’t be sorted into theories, such as Freudian’s. Then I’ll cheekily say back, “See! I also can come up with something like that what, no need to pay to study Psychology!”

Of course, that being said, what everyone knows about living things [humans, animals, plants, etc] is just the tip of the iceberg. The intrinsic values of Psychology can be found in every living being, and with much exploration, you can do more than you ever thought.


I am capable of profound and deep thoughts, just that my child-like behaviour does not reflect what goes on in my thought daily. I prefer to call this, ‘Flexibility’. :p After all, I know this is me, something I’ll remain as when I reach my 60-year-old mark.

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I was conversing with my colleague [Yes, you, Shiliang, if you’re reading this] yesterday, about our perception of the same person. She told me, “I can finally understand what you said about X!”. These were not her exact words and tone, but yeah, it was somewhere close. The ‘X’ in question here, is someone we both know, albeit me knowing the person earlier than Shiliang (SL).

So sometimes I’ll pour my ‘woes’ to SL over MSN, and shei’ll remain neutral. It was only recently that she got to know ‘X’ more, and somehow her perception of ‘X’, was something that she could relate to mine.

I’m a person who does not take my friends’ words for it, when they disparage a new, mutual friend. I believe that’s their perception of that person, and whatever experiences they had with that person, remains as theirs, not mine. Sure, I’ll take their words of caution and advice, but when it comes to making friends, I’ll like to start new, not with a clouded perception of someone.

Dar is someone who behaves like that too, and he chose to be with me despite people instilling thoughts that I’m a bad girlfriend. :)

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Coming back to the topic, I realize that somehow, you are not what you eat / talk / wear / etc. You are who you are, because you’re formed by people’s perceptions of you, during their experiences with you. Of course, that’s just the face value, but more often than not, a person is shaped by what people think of him.

If an innocent person was thought to be evil by 99% of the members of Earth, then can he seriously remain innocent? I doubt.

That’s how someone tend to click with a certain group, and not others. It’s the way of life.

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People also get assessment from different people on various aspects. You may be a good colleague, but a bad boss. A good friend, but a bad colleague. A good sibling, but a bad friend. A good husband, but a bad boyfriend. You get the drift.

So in a way, no one is exactly pure in terms of personality. We change, because of environment, values, peer pressure, etc. And change is the only constant! We’re all a cocktail of different personalities. Hmm, I think I’m drifting away from my point. :D

There’s just so much to find out about one another. Right, let me get back to work and leave early to croon for my KTV session later. Muwahaha.

Paper Chase

January 7th, 2007 by elisetan

If I have ever talked about this topic, then the idea I’ve once presented, is outdated.

In the midst of chatting with Jonathan [or better known as Bear to some], this blog entry came about. All the while I’ve been chasing after my dreams of going to University, and earning my precious degree. But somehow or rather, I’ve not been doing things actively to achieve this aim.

Sometime ago, I was talking to my CPF ex-colleagues, and some of us lamented that we would never get a salary of more than $2k per month. The year was 2004. I supposed at this point in time, more than half of the 4 of us, has already achieved that mark. With only one of us having a degree.

For the few of the normal route-goers, i.e. geting flying colors during adolescent years, and getting into a good junior college, and finally into University, and graduating with a good degree.

In that sense, the extra bacon that you get per month in the working world, isn’t exactly hard to achieve. At least you don’t pay more as compared to a private degree, right?

So you come out into the working life, armed with a degree. And work life starts from there. If the working life’s good to you, promotion comes to you, and more money come rolling in.

If not, at least you’ll be contented with earning at least 2.3k per month, with a certificate [degree, not marriage, dummy!].

For people like me, who dropped out of JC [well not exactly also, because I completed JC with a not-so-desirable A-Level cert], who went to polytechnic and then started working for at least 2 years, getting back into studies, is hard. Make that DAMN HARD.

Well, I’m getting a comfortable pay right now [even with ever-rising expensies!], and I don’t see the point in wasting 30k [most of it by loan] to get a piece of paper, and getting $400 more per month that what I’m getting now.

Certainly, if I’m the type who aims to be a boss, a supervisor, to be a high-flyer, a degree would certainly help. Especially in the government sectors, which doesn’t promote non-degree holders.

But if I’m the type who would forever be a junior executive, then it’s no point being a degree holder, right? :p

Ok, now I shall go ahead and aim for a Porsche. :p

As what Darling said, I have a lot of wants. :p

"u wan lots of things, but mainly u wan to study. or at least, continue studying. but it always tends to be hard for u cos of the extra $ and time u have already spent - sec sch, jc, poly..then u still wan to get car…"

People stay alive for their dreams, right? I stay in a job I dislike, because I want to earn money to fulfil my dreams/wants.

Others forfeit their dreams, to work in something they dislike, for money.

Got difference, OK!

Marriage

January 6th, 2007 by elisetan

Somehow most girls of my age, would yearn to get married, to give birth to kids and have a happy family of their own. It’s the natural order of life.

I’m no different. But I can’t help but feel that lately, it has become so commercialised that even getting married to the better half, has somehow become a pretty expensive thing to pay for.

My primary school friend, who’s the only buddy I’m in contact with, is throwing her wedding dinner on the 16th of September, 2007. She got married legally back in 2004 I think. Sometimes destiny is such a weird thing, I still remember the time I attended her ex-boyfriend’s chalet with her, and got quite close to the ex bf’s sister, who was aged 10 back then.

Thereafter, when she broke off with him, and after she got hitched again, to her second bf [her husband now], I’ve never seen him before. And within 3 months of them being together, she told me she felt that he was The One. It was a little disbelieving.

But now, it really shows that you do not need a long period of time to tell you how your other half and yourself, would turn out. Fate is such a weird thing. Hmm.

Then it suddenly dawned upon me, that somehow a few of the friends I have, who have their marital status changed to ‘married’, have very few ex-boyfriends, if none.

Nanyan and Huichuan, both got married to their first love. My friend, Baoru, got married to her second boyfriend. Shuyan got married to her first love as well.

Does that mean that my turn would come LAST? Haha. :p

And when I watched the 9pm’s ‘Million-Dollar Baby’, starring Zoe Tay and Li Nan Xing, there was this line said by a divorced lady, that sometimes the one you love may not be the one you marry. And the one you marry may not be the one you love the most. As long as you don’t abhor the idea of marrying & living in the same pad with your pursuer, why not?

Though I’m already of marriageable age, I seriously cannot fathom the day I am somebody’s wife. O.o Nor can I imagine myself to be someone’s mother. O.o

But I feel like giving birth already. Haha. :p

D&D Tropicana

December 21st, 2006 by elisetan

Not long ago, I had my company’s Dinner & Dance. The theme was Tropicana/Hawaiian. But I wasn’t informed that I am invited to go, hence it was only 2 weeks prior to the 15th of December, that I got around to search for my clothing.

Sidenote: Due to tax issues, they do not invite contigent staff [contract staff] to the D&D. But they invite the FTE [Full Time Employees] to the D&D, and also allow them to bring a partner, be it their spouses or perhaps a contigent staff in the same team.

I found a flower garland on Yahoo Auctions, and it’s customisable. In the end I paid $15 for it! :p Found the wrap skirt online too! So, didn’t spend too much for the D&D, but at least I’m unique! :p

I came a little late, and some peeps were doing their airbrush tattoo on their arms. But I had no chance to do so, for they wanted the attendees to enter into the ballroom.

When some of them saw me, they exclaimed, "So cute!!" or "Hey, this is so sweet!". I was the only one with a handmade [but not by me] flower garland. Most of them have a flower in their hair. Hehe. I think around 10 plus people complimented me? Hehe.

Dd_tropicana_waiting_for_tattoo

Why we call this the D&D? Because these people [refer to below], they dance, we dine. Haha. :p Kind of find the last year’s D&D [which was held on 20 Jan 06, oddly] better, and more entertaining. All of us were involved, and yet this time round, only the first few tables were involved. Games were also repeated from the Partner Conference held in April.

Dd_tropicana_we_dine_they_dance_13

After the buffet dinner, a few of us stayed behind a little, wanting to groove to the music, but on seeing that no one else was around [except us and a few others who were seated], we didn’t not to dance. Went on to take photos instead.

Hawaiian_dd_group_2

This was me before I went to the D&D, took taxi there, spent $20, and found out that even if I came at 8, it wasn’t too late. -.-"

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Frankly speaking, I do look different in EVERY photo. Haha. :p

Sultry_hawaiian_princess

Got a webcam [Microsoft Lifecam VX-1000] as the door gift. The redemption coupon was designed by me, the prize labels for the lucky draw [only for FTE] were designed by me, the 151 lucky draw names, were boxed up in Excel and cut up by me. But too bad I have no chance to take part in the lucky draw.

Last year’s was themed Masquerade, this year themed Hawaiian. As the years go by, I think I can reuse my ‘accessories’. Hehe.

USB

November 16th, 2006 by elisetan

Update: I’ve just received this URL from a friend. Using 30 USB Ports, you can actually cook BBQ meat! OMG.

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In the past, USB ports used to be heavily used by notebook users. Personal Computers that used PS2 [not Play Station 2] to connect to printers, monitor, etc was considered upmarket at one point in time.

Then the plug-and-play USB technology took over the world quietly, and it has become the universal connection from port to port.

Okay, I may sound stupid at some point in time, but please note I’m not a tech-savvy person. Though some colleagues and friends think that I’m a gadget-girl. =P But you’ll be surprised how much of a technology-laggard I am. :D

Anyway, I do know that apart from computer peripherals, other things such as mobile phone charger, bluetooth earpiece charger, etc uses USB technology as well. So you can charge your beloved phones in the office/school without having to plug into any switch.

Fan
Then we have some smart people who came up with USB desktop fan…
Ingenious?!

Lamp
And desktop lamps powered by batteries OR USB power.

But the Ultimatum came about, when I saw this:
Cup_warmer
A USB-powered Cup Warmer!

It’s amazing how much power a USB port can generate. But I supposed you’ll tend to use more electricity this way, hehe. I was just kidding with my colleague the other day when I saw the cup warmer at a nearby stall…

"I wonder if that warmer can be improved, such that you can cook eggs/instant noodles on it!"

Haha. Very funny. -.-"

But I won’t be surprised they turn the electrical stoves/Microwave/other electrical appliances into USB-powered, though it’s too far-fetched and dangerous.

This tells you one thing:
People are getting more and more stuck to their computers.

Crushes, pimples, crushed pimples…

November 9th, 2006 by elisetan

Hmm. I somehow realised that I’ve grown old. No longer do I have crushes that make my heart flutter. Haha. All of my ex-es took a liking for me first. Except one of my ex, who used to be my biggest crush.

But thing is, I realised that I feel rather put off by him, when he started to send me messages again. Just a span of 3 years, people’s reception can go from ‘delight’ to ‘disgust’? Wonder.

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On another note, I thought buses are supposed to increase their frequencies and shorten the intervals? How come I don’t see/feel anything?! They are still as crowded! If I’m not wrong, buses should legally have only 11 standing passengers, correct?

And what good is the flag early campaign when the buses don’t stop when you do so? I hate it when I’m the only person taking that bus, and the bus doesn’t stop for me despite me flagging for it EARLY. Idiotic.

Taking the initiative

November 5th, 2006 by elisetan

Hmm. Somehow, I think that between friends, one should take initiative in doing things to keep the friendship going. I am not that proficient keeping in touch with everyone, just like anyone else. But I do believe, at the very least, there must be some initiative taken.

Hope this post doesn’t strike unhappiness or whatsoever, just something that sparked off [my thoughts] from a recent gathering request.

My friend initiated to do something together, and asked me to call along others as well, hence I tried to call others along too. Though the response wasn’t good [everyone’s busy with either exams/work or wanted to save money], but I still was OK to go for it.

Then I messaged my friend to change the venue since it’ll be more convenient for us, the next day, I followed up with a call, and was told that he/she doesn’t want to go ahead with the outing, since he/she had wanted to save money.

Sounds reasonable. I’m alright with that, seriously. Just that I had wished my friend would let me know earlier, either giving me a reply via SMS, or call, since he/she was the person to initiate the outing. I’m not upset about it, just a wee bit disappointed. Anyway, there might be other reasons why my friend didn’t reply, so let’s give him/her the benefit of the doubt. :) At least I found out early by calling up my friend.

Almost won $2.5k

November 5th, 2006 by elisetan

Remember sometime in September, I took part in Superstar 2? My Dad bought 4D for my queue number at that point in time, but my new friend’s number [3299] came out instead.

Today, his colleagues asked him whether he wants to buy 4D. And since the other day, my 2 relatives came over and slept in the Master Bedroom. My mum and I were also sleeping there, and my Dad took my room instead, since he’s the only guy.

I pasted the queue number on my cupboard, so that was one of the two numbers he thought of, to buy.

The number came out on Saturday…
05112006018
[Photo taken with my Nokia N73!]

BUT HE BOUGHT THE 4D TODAY!! As he didn’t buy Saturday’s newspapers, and didn’t know about it. We could have won $2.5k. -.-"

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Anyway, Dar and I joined my colleague [SL] for badminton. Initially I thought it was a small gathering, but thereafter nearly 70 people turned up! O_O We basically booked the whole court area at Clementi Sports Complex.

The people were made up of friends, and friends of friends, and etc. Quite interesting. Enjoyed myself quite a lot, and played quite a few games, and won one, if I’m not wrong. Hehe.

Maybe can post pictures here soon, once my colleague pass me the photos.

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Haven’t really explore my new N73, which I bought it at $538. I’m broke. O_O Never read manual. Hehe. Monday blues!!

I killed my Nokia 3230

November 3rd, 2006 by elisetan

Don’t have the mood to blog properly. So string these sentences yourself.

I bought an ‘original’ casing from Yahoo auctions for my phone.
Cost: $21 [The $1 is for postage]
Sent on Tues morning.
Received on Friday evening.
Happiness is short-lived.
Previously found a website to disassemble my phone.
Dar bought a T6 star screw-driver for me.
Removed 4 screws successfully.
Last part of disassembly tutorial do not have pictures.
Overlooked the other 4 screws lying underneath LCD screen.
Accidentally damaged the motherboard [whatever you call that green board].
Phone could power on, but refuse to load into the main screen.
Darling came to my house, he pointed the 4 extra screws. =/
Stupidity has a price to pay for.
I didn’t buy this phone, but I quite like it for its compactness and features.
Cursed the designer of this phone, especially for the casing.
Cursed myself for being stupid.
Cried. =/
Excuse for a new phone.
Hate buying new phone.
Need to adapt again. Sigh.
Someday I’ll die of being stupid.

猪是怎么死的?笨死的!